Ah~ Its so late now. Just came back from school. My friend took 1hour++ trying to print something in school, and i waited with a few friends with him. Otherwise i be back home earlierT.T.

Anyway, Monday its the start of the study week, my exams is starting on next Friday. I haven really studied. Today my pipc tutorial test was cancelled. My tutor said it was plan so as not to give us too much stress since exam is coming. Today's oc test was fine. I think i will scrape through it.

Yesterday my mom brought the OST for high school musical 2. The songs were not as nice compared to high school musical 1. I try to upload some at imeem and post the link here if i have the time to do so=/. Rather busy now at Granado Espada as i just got my new character.

Somethings was bothering me just now.

Firstly, I saw a poster in school which said "feel hopeless in life? You may be suffering for depression" I thought about it since ever i saw it. I feel that no matter what i did, nothing turns out to be good. I usually look down on myself. But i guess this is not depression as depression usually brings upon weird behavior right?

Secondly, I feel out. I feel like i am a torch in "shakugan no shana". No matter where i go, at first i have friends to hang around with. But as time goes by, my existence to them its like vanishing. It's happening now. I'm always feeling lonely (Apart when i'm with my gf). Is it my character which makes people stay far from me? I don't know. If you ask me how many friends i have, probably fingers on 1 hand would be sufficient. On my birthday, only my best friend(if he meets me) would give me a present and another person would be my gf. My parents of course would buy me a cake which i feel its sufficient. Friends celebarting birthday for friend? This would never happen to me in my entire life.

"Hey is this *blah blah*?" my friend asked. I didn't know how to answer him. I'm not good at singers and names of songs. While my clinches know them very well. I'm was usually thrown out of the group. This is only one part of it. There's still many instances where similar cases happens. My interests and theirs were always different. Anything I do will not get their attention. Now a days, it seems that I was "kicked" out of the group. My feeling though. Everything my "friends" does always leave me out, which they usually don't.

Probably I should isolate myself from them so that i would not feel saddened, which i'm already. This means, I would not go for chalet i guess. And I think my blog has no one to look at it either. Its only me, myself and I. Kinda sad doesn't it?

Maybe I really do have a slight depression. No idea.

Ok my sis had done bathing. Time to bathe. Cyaz~