1st day of my FA lecture=p.. It was the first time i been to a business school's lecture theatre. The LT was... SO SMALL~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ omg.. Some people have to sit on the stairs. I was sitting on the front row, and the lecturer was only 2meters away from me!(Probably lesser). Today's lecture was quite simple. He explained about what was accounting about and some rules about accounting. It was rather more of an introduction. The thing i mind about the whole lecture was the guy sitting beside me. He took my chair's arm rest, and more ever, he also keep shaking his leg. I was seriously very irritated at that time. Bleh~ Hopefully i won't be sitting with him anymore=p.

Oh yea. Today was my CO practice. My instructor said that I and another 2 more friends are able to enter the main group! I was really shocked. I feel that I still do not possess the required skills for performance. Probably i won't be joining them till i get better. Anyway, there's a combined practice for the newbies. Probably I would stay there to get use to being in one before going into the main group. I think this would be better as I'm sure I won't be useful in there.

I did something regretful today. My senior(friend) drove me to school today. I was worried about getting late and i forgot to say THANKS to him! ARGHHHH... Hope he wouldn't mind. I was really glad that he is willing to fetch me to school so that I would not be squeezing in the bus and getting tortured standing all the way till my school.

Oh before I forgot, let me say a little of my OC lecturer. 1 word, "wow". He changed totally(maybe not). He started praising my course which he was insulting during the last lecture. I was shocked. What was he thinking-.-" Probably its one of his cunning tricks to boast the students morale. This was employed by my secondary biology teacher-.-"

Just received a call asking me to attend some public speaking workshop. Zomg, Its my fear! I don't dare to attend it though i want to. There are many things i want to do, but i just do not have the confident to do so. Another one which i really wanted to do was to find a job. Its not for the money, but rather for the experience. I really want to have a job, but my fear kept me aback. Hope someone would appear in my life to help me conquer my fears. I guess people say fears can only be countered by one, not by others. I guess i'm "finished".

Well, i think thats all for today, see ya next time=)

Aww 2nd day of school, didnt had a chance to post a new post yesterday. I was busy playing audition=X. Anyway, i was woken up by a loud thunder at around 5.30pm. I did not really had a good sleep that night. My aircon was not working well. I was sweating the whole night ><.
Anyway first day of school went pretty well. I got my new subjects' lecturer they were fine, as usual, sang lullaby to me once again<_<.

Today i met my Organic Chemistry 2 lecturer. He really pissed me off. After he started introducing himself, he insulted my course! I remember him saying like this: "Organic Chemistry was not did well by BMS cohort as compared to you because you guys mixed with BMS students which caused them to do badly." I was seriously angry. BMS can't do well, what does it got to do with us? It just that they are simply incapable. He also said that he didn't want to teach our course. If he doesn't want to, why he come? I rather not to see his bloody black face. Some BMS-Freaked lecturer which a doctor in his name. Doctor? MY FOOT! I guess he really had a permanent damage in his head. I did not had my lunch today because of this bloody lecturer who spoiled my mood. This is freaking too much. A lecturer which wants alot of face don't fit to be a lecturer.

Actually I'm typing this entry in my school library. It's around 3 Pm now and i have another 1 hour more before my CDS(accounting) tutorial starts. BLeh its so boring. My friends had their after lecture's over. I have to wait for another 2hours before mine starts. This makes me so lonely. No friends around=/. Anyway I'm freezing here><... The aircon is rarely cold, except today, which was especially cold.

Man, looking at those junior schools, they are having holidays now while i have to study hard to exams. I had just took a look at my timetable and realised that my exams were near chinese new year. Bleh~ Means i have to study during CNY for my exams. Sigh~~

I don't really have the mood to study now. No idea why, it seems that subject are getting harder and i feel my grades are going to be worse and worse as the time to come. The subjects now don't look as easy as it is in sem 1. I do not have much motivation to enter into university either. I feel there is no point in going there since..... Uh nvm...

Hmm around 50mins more, I think i shall spend my time chattinn with my online friends before going to class. Cya next time=p

School's reopening, i got my new timetable! I've gotten into financial accounting! Hahas. I think it's one of the most popular CDS choosen and i got into it! Kinda happy... But one thing is, my classmates no 1 has the same class as me. I'm alone again.. Sob. I hope after i can make some friend there.

AHHHH~~ *Screams* everytime when i see cello, i feel very sad. It seems that i have not put down my heart. Its still hanging some where there. Sometimes i wonder what do i really like. Chocolate was not really my like in the past. It just that i made myself like it. So i now really don't know what are my "real" likes, who am i, what am i. Hope someone could tell me the answer<_<.

This week my stomach was bad. Very sour. No idea why. It seems that there would be a certain period where my stomach would turn sour everytime, the feeling is horrid, i kept eating medicine. Tried 3 medicine and finally, now, its fine. Thanks goodness.

Lets me say a little about audition, I jsut leveled up to lv 6 yesterday and tried couple battle party. Out of 3 tries only 1 time i won. It was really lucky. I got a x8 perfect chain and alot of fewer lower power chains. I was the first! I won npc! wow. It was shocking. I thought that would never happen to me. Anyway, this would probably the one and only time that i can do something so amazing.

I think thats all for today, not much things to say, cya all~!

Ha. Yesterday was the release of SnS season 2 episode 2. I watched it at veoh. It was quite interesting as usual. I cant wait for the next episode next week. But, next week is the reopening of my school=(. I haven't got my timetable yet, hope its not stressfulxD.

I went to EastPoint yesterday too to eat my lunch with my old friends yesterday. It been years that we ever sit together and chat. It was quite a nice experience catching up with everyone after losing touch for many years. My friends didn't really change much in terms of character. But in terms of height they really grew alot! I was the shortest! Sobz...

Oh ya, I made my hair that day. It was a long time since i ever really did it. I dunoe if i style my hair correctly or not, but since my friend didn't said anything that day, it should be fine i guess. My hair is still standing till now even when i'm typing this. Haha. I didn't know that spray wax was that strong.

Last night, i chatted with my 1 of my 3 year old online friend. She said she felt that I was not as happy as last time when i talked to her. I didn't really realise that since i always thought i talked to her the same way as always. Probably i'm upset now without realising myself. My that friend has a regular abit which was to joke around with me. I did not really take them to heart of course. Oh ya, and she was joking around with me yesterday in helping me find a gf<_<.

Later, she brought her good friend along to the chat room and we 3 talked lots of things. My friend's friend though she was 1 year younger than me, her thinking was very mature. She have a very positive outlook in life which was a total opposite of me. She said that, sometimes online friends are better than rl friends, because for example, whenever you are not feeling well, the online friends are first to concern about you. Indeed, I think this is true.

Now a day's i'm back to audition. I found a nice couple there. She was quite cute. Though she's older than me, i didn't really mind much. Since the departure of my ex, I don't have anyone to talk to, seems now I got one=p.

Anyway I think thats all for today. See you guys next time=)

Wow.. Finally shakugan no shana season 2 released in english sub. Just watched finish at stage 6. It was very shocking to find the most latest episode at stage 6 where things were usually slow. Video quality is cool. Far better than voeh... Probably uncomparable.

The anime as usual, had a nice intro to season 2, it did not disappoint me. Just after watching season 2's episode 1, i'm already excited for the next episode. I wonder did they made Shana's character cuter. I've no idea. But to me it seems like it.

Well enough about my shana's frenzy=/.

Sigh.... Actually I'm kind of upset now. Someone that i trusted alot wants a break with me. I did alot for her, i changed alot of her, i screwed my life just for her and this is what she did to me. In the past I don't trust people easily. Just cause of her, I begin trusting. Probably from now i would not trust anyone again. I would not entrust my heart easily to anyone again. I shall freeze it till some one who is worthy to unfreeze the forzen heart i have.

(Yeah~ I changed my BGM. It was a sad scene in the movie. Probably that express my mood now...)

But now, what am I going to do about my life? No close friends.... No one calls me out. I'm excluded from everything. My birthday is coming and i plan to throw a BBQ party, but who is going to come? Sigh...

Sometimes, I really hope that life would be as exciting as anime. It's full of colours as compared to the dull world right now.

I watched a war video not long ago, many people died just because of it. I came to a conclusion. War are not what people wants, rather, they are what the upper people wants. What does it proves? Upper peoples are just plain childish, irrational. Leaders of country? I doubt so. Though I know there are good leaders out there.

People out there wants to stop wars? Why is US continously making new and more advanced weapons? Aren't they trying to promote war in this way?

I've watched anime about war. They develop new technologies and tried to promote war. Why? Because they can sell their weapons and earn alot of money. So why war?

"Peace!" Would this really exist with the continously development of new weapon? Armies are ready in every country. What for? Preparing for war? Otherwise, why armies? Killing and killing and killing, making unwilling people participate in the war to kill when they do not want. So is this the selfishless of the upper people?

This world is ugly, probably not as beautiful as what I had imagine it to be.

Anyway i think thats all for today. See ya!~

WOW.. JUST WATCHED FINISH SHAKUGAN NO SHANA THE MOVIE!!!!!

Here is some review. The show is very similar to the format of "Lion King 1 and a half". The movie has a situation similar to the series of season 1, except that fighting were different and there were scene not shown in the series. Overall, i rate the movie 7/10. Did not really like the movie as compared to the series.

One part of the movie which really shocked me was the ending. I SAW SHANA's SMILE. She was a serious girl which i did not seen her smile in the series of season 1. (Some spoilers: At the end, sakai yuji's existance was about to vanish. Shana and Alastor made a prank out of him that he would die and acted as though they were sad. When the clock strikes 12, Yuji was back, Shana and Alastor LAUGHED! This is the first time Shana & Alastor made a joke! Which made the movie worth watching in my opinion.)

Here is the picture of her smile:




Back to my life, its kind of boring now adays. I got tired of Granado Espada. My favourite faction disbanded, i feel that there is no point playing on. I decided to make myself a faction, probably following the name of shana-related things.

Ahh... 3 more days. I'm going for a job review(I think it's what they call). My friend has introduced me to this marketing job. Actually, i was not confident at myself, but I took up the offer. I guess i can't decide anything now till i really go and see what is the job about. I have not had any job experience and if this would be my first, I don't think I could do well. You can say that I'm looking down on myself.

This holiday, I've been very lonely. Maybe not only this holiday, its been a very long time. Probably the only friends I have were the ones online. No one asked me out, kinda sad huh? Everytime I'm left out at group chats. Who cares about me? This made me wonder what are friends? Even...... Sigh.. better not talk about it... In short, I'm lonely. Anyone reading this wants to be my friend? I won't mind=p

I think that is all for today. See ya next time~