Hmm my mom and sisters went to my uncle's house. Now the house only left me and my dad. My dad's watching his movie and me... I'm typing my blog. I didn't really want to watch the movie he is watching as it does not seem catchy enough for me.

Today's school was a mess... I got back 2 of my papers. The paper which i thought I would fail, I passed, and the paper which I thought that I would do the best, did not get a real good result. I was kind of disappointed. Whats more was that initially OC tutorial was continuing at 4pm today. I was "like what the freak?" My lectures ends at 12 and I need to wait for 4hours just for it? The library is closed and my friends and I do not have a place where we can comfortably dwell for the next 4hours. But soon later, my tutor came out of his staff room and 3 classes negotiated with him that the lessons should be postpone to a later day as today's New Year Eve, and people have their plans too(well I did not). And so, the period was pushed back to friday 11~12. Infact, he said would be tired as after that he would have hours of lab to teach. Actually I really feel sorry for him, I thought of not changing back and wait till 4 pm to have my tutorial, but, I did not said anything. Oh ya and during the TD lectures, my mind was blank. I didn't know what the lecturer is talking about. When I came back home, it feels like going to school was a dream-.-".

Actually something upset me. Not really upset but rather disappointed. I just knew that no 1 took Japanese as a CDS. That person whom i thought chose Japanese picked another course as first choice. Well, doesn't matter. I've interest this this subject so it doesn't matter if there is no one there to accompany me.

I read my Japanese book again today. My head was spinning. I didn't really understand what the thing means. I only know that Japanese words has past and present tense, which are similar to english, and an extension of the word to make it sound polite when talking with someone older or important.[Present: -masu, Negative present -masen, Past: - mashite, Negative present: masendeshite]. Probably after reading for one hour, this is what I learn. Actually I wanted to asked one of my online friend for help as she is kind of pro in the language. But seems she's busy at work, and I think she's not very well now, I shall postpone the question to a later time. Seems I need to let my head spin abit huh? lol... If anyone in the public reads my blog, and knows how to speak Japanese, I don't mind you teaching me jap, leave a tag~.

Hmmm I think I shall go watch some anime now, since my friend's busy doing his homework and I don't really wan to play dota alone. Later~

Woo~~ Just watched finish Evan Almighty. I know it's not an not-so-new movie, but I didn't had a chance to watched it when it was airing in the cinema. It's quite a cool show, the show teaches something that nothing is impossible. If you are going to do something, do it right! and don't mind about others' opinion. What is most important is the love and trust of your close one. Probably that's the most important things in the world.

Anyway, tomorrow school's reopen for half day before the New year 2008 <_<. I feel it's quite redundant, they should reopen school on the 2nd instead of on the 31th of dec=X. Guess tomorrow I'll be getting some of my test papers back. I won't hope for anything good ='(.

Oh ya!!! I just realised something. I realised I don't like people who do not say say a formal "bye", "see-ya", "I got to something" etc etc in a msn/sms conversation. I always expect a reply everytime I say something. Making me wait for a reply that would not come is plain rude. I guess that's what most people are like. I seriously hate this kind of attitude. Another thing that I realised is that my some of my "friends" only msn or talk to me just to ask for favours or if they need some help here and there. It's just plain stupid. Am I a tool to you or a friend?

Well, today as usual, I read my japanese language book. It's getting tougher. I guess it's beacuse it's the basics of the language. If I managed to memorise this chapter and move on, it would be the time where I could form japanese sentences. The rest of the chapter in the book mostly emphasised on vocabulary on different occassions like meeting new people, asking around. As usual, I would post what i had memorised today before watching animes again.

What I had memorised today:

I realised that japanese cannot be learned by using english direct translations, but by understanding what does the word does.

(As my jap's vocabulary is not that good, I substitute jap words for the relevant english words)

Ga - A marker for "subject"

O - A marker for "object"

Kara - Used to mark the word's starting point. [Eg. 9 kara study. -> I study from 9 o'clock]

Made - Used to mark the word's ending point. [Eg. 9 made study. -> I study till 9]

Ni - Used to mark the target of the action. [Eg. Present ni give. -> I give present]
OR
Used to mark the time of event. [Eg. 4 ni arrived. - > I arrived at 4]

e - Used to mark the direction of the action.[Eg. School e go -> I go to/towards school]

de - (Still not sure, trying to figure out)

no - This is use to mark something that belong to the person/thing [Eg. John's no PSP -> John's PSP]

to - to list items [Eg. Credit card to car to cash -> Credit card and car and cash]
OR
to specifiy the co-agent of the action. (Still not sure, trying to figure out)

ka - used as "or"[Eg. Pen ka pencil - > Pen or pencil]

wa - used to mark the topic word (Still not sure, trying to figure out)

Refering to things:

Kore: Things at your area
Sore: Things at the other person's area
Are: Things outside both of your area

Some words that refers to people:

Watashi - I
Watashitachi - we/us
anata - you
anatatachi - you(pural)
Kare - he
Karera - they, them (used for mixed gender as well as guys only)
Kanojo - her
Kanojora - they, them (female only)

Guess that's all about it.. See ya next time! bye!

Gochisosama!!!! Ah.. Just eaten alot of things, Mee siam, Cheese cake, oneh oneh, curry puff for lunch!><. I don't usually eat alot during my lunch, but my mom says that there's alot of left over so i decide to "help out" heh!

My dad found an adpator for my audio!!!!! No more new wires are needed to be brought!=X. The sound finally appears infront of me instead of on my left o.o. yay? i guess lol. I did some reading on my japanese book and stucked at this table. Seem I would need alot of time to memorise it!

2 more days to new year!~ I don't really have the "New Year" feel. Probably because of my poly's timetable. It seems a new year, but yet, I'm still year 1! In 2+ months time, I would have another long long holiday, but before i could reach there, I need pass the most difficult obstacle! SEMESTER EXAMINATIONS! Gosh.. hate exams. But come to think of it, exams are like a marker. It proves that you studied. I realise this when i wanted to learn japanese. This thought were in my mind, " If I learn how to speak, it won't be recgonised right? As I do not have a certificate, I won't even know what level of "proness" I'm standing at!" Guess that's the usefulness of an exam.

What i had learnt today:

Kara - From
Made - Untill

Guess these are adjective(I think so... not sure of this word meaning. ENGLISH NOOB HERE!=X) words in japanese.

Till then~ Jana~~

After going to 2 popular bookstore, 1 MPH and some wierd bookstore in Tanglin Mall(not sure if it's the place's name). I finally found a good book where i could learn Japanese! I suddenly had this passion to learn Jap. From what i see, Jap is a very interesting language to learn. Even though my languages sucks, I still wanted to learn Japanese.(Well, by right I should bulk up on my current languages before learning a new language right?=/ correct me if I'm wrong) I brought this book which cost $39T_T.. Quite expensive but I think its worth the money!

Anyway, today's was the CDS selection day. Sad to say, no one chose Japanese except one of my classmate. Thats good actually, I thought at first that there were no one to accompany me in taking the subject. Bleh.. School's reopening. Boringg!!!! Getting back my test papers. I know my TD sure fail. I think I going to be very emo when i receive my test paperT_T... Guess no 1 will cares anyway, so it doesn't matter<_<. class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">WEDNESDAY, THERE WOULD BE AN INPROMTU(unsure spelling) SPEECH! GOSH! I DID NOT READ ANY NEWSPAPER OR WHATSOEVER, I'M SO DEADT_T.

My Dad brought a 5 metre S-video cable for my computer. Now I'm able to watch my animes on my TV instead of the computer screen!!! So cool! I can even play my computer games using the TV screen. But, I still need another cable before I could really completely enjoy. For now, there is only display on my TV and there is no sound coming out from it. The sound are from my computer speaker, which is kind of weird when I watch my anime. The sounds were coming from my left side while the screening is in front of me<_<.

I think I'll end off with some Japanese which i had learnt from the book. I treat this as a practice as I'm really lazy to take a pencil and paper to write these stuff=X.

Lesson 1

Some basic words:

1. Domo - Refers to thanks or used for brief greetings
2. So, So - Refers to "yeah" when listening to someone in conversation.
3. Ie - Refers to "no"
4. Dame - Refers to can't or not allowed to do that.
5. Li desu ne - Refers to "thats a great idea!"
6. Yatta - Refers to " Yay~ I did it"
7. Gambatte - Refers to "do your best!" ( A lot people misspelled this word)
8. Omedato - Refers to congratulations
9. Yosoko - Refers to "Welcome!"
10. Makasete - Refers to " Count on me!"
11. Shinpai Shinaide - Refers to " Don't worry"
12. Sono Tori - Refers to "You are absolutely right!"

Seems most of it are dialong-type meaning. I guess that's the word's real meaning then. Anyway I forgetting those rarely used words, as least for now, such as "Sono Tori, Yosoko, li desu ne."

Pitches & Vowel lengths:

Different Pitches for the same word may mean different things. It kind of like chinese.

Vowel lenghts, what i meant? Like for example Obasan can mean 2 things. First is aunt and grandmother. To differentiate them is the drag of the vowel a after ob. So aunt would pronounced as O- Bahh-San, and grandmother would be pronounced as O-Baah-san.

Forming sentences:

In english, we make sentence as Subject-Verb-Object.

In Japanese, sentences are formed as Subject-Object-Verb. The verb must always be the last. "I like anime" would turn out to be "i anime like." The sentence can be constructed as Object-Subject-Verb too. Marker are used. For example, ga is used for subject pointer and o is used for object pointer. Interesting huh!

Well, I think thats all till where I studied till, Reading more of it tml=)

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I'm tired of listening, when no one listens to me. I'm very hostile. Actually infact, i don't know whats happening to me. My ankle's sprain, i refused to put medicine. I hit my leg, i refused to care for it. Just now i accidently cut myself with my finger nails, and i didnt really care much. Weird...

Christmas is approaching, I feel nothing. To me, it's just an ordinary day. Nothing special. Probably it's just going out to eat a big meal with my family and come back home to watch my anime again. Anyway one who is reading this, Merry Christmas, regardless if it's belated or not=/.

Projects projects projects. I wanted to do my projects, but i cant find the mood to. I'm trying to pick some japanese by reading online stuff. So far i learned about the pronouncation of AEIOU in japanese and how a sentence should phrase like. Well, weird thing is, if you translate japanese directly to english, it's broken<_<. My english is not good in a first place, probably it would be easier to learn lol.

I think I have ntohing to say anymore. See you next time~ Sayonara~

N.B The 1st paragraph is not meant to be know. I wanted to relief myself so i typed that. If anyone can decifier it, and have the stamina to read it, i salute you as it consist of typo, inconstant words. robablypq ouyw reau hetu neoq howu reulyt arecu orfi emi.

Ah! Finally, I'm back at home. The 5 days tour to Cameron Highlands and Genting was indeed a fun time. Time to make some memories about my trip=p.
On the day of departure, My dad's friend fetch us to the place(as taxi fares were expensive at night) where we were supposed to take our travel pack(tickets/voucher etc). After that, we met up with my cousins' family. It been a long long time since i ever go holiday with this cousin. After that, we board the bus and headed to Cameron Highlands. I slept almost throughout the whole journey, except when the bus stops at places that we could have a toilet break, I was also shake awake during the travel up the Cameron Highlands. The road was curvery warvey turvy(guess you should know the meaning). I was "flunked" from left to right constantly, and at times, my head hit the glass window.*ouch* My sister and one of my cousin could not take the rough journey and they vomited. Actually I was surprised nothing happened to me. Usually I would be on the verge of vomiting whenever I'm in this kind of rides, surprisingly, I was fine o.o.

Before arriving to our hotel in Cameron Highlands, we stopped outside one travel agency at the highest town of Cameron Highlands. It was about 9 o'clock. We went to eat some breakfast before returning to the coach. Soon later, a tour guide came and promote their travel package of tours at Cameron Highland. We signed up for 3 of them which cost 900+ rm! It was so expensiveT_T. Well, After that we went to our hotel, "Strawberry Park" to wait for the check in time. We waited for about 1hour before rooms were avaliable for us. After that, we rested for awhile before heading for our first tour. It was a visit to some farms. I could not really remember the details. But the catus, flowers, plants were amazing. Some even exhibit interesting properties. There was a flower that could create foam when it is crushed, it can be used as a bathing soap! Of course there were other interesting stuff too. Just that I'm lazy to post it here haha... I also picked strawberries! It was quite fun, but the floor were muddy and my shoes were dirty<_<.

The second day, we woke up very early to catch the sunrise. We went to the top of Cameron Highlands. It was very very cold. I managed to see the sun rise. It was quite beautiful. I took a few photos, but the pictures dun turn out very nice as i'm using a handphone cameraT_T.

Well, the 3rd day, we set off to Genting Highlands! By the time we reached there, it was already about 3 o'clock. My cousins, sister and I went to coffee bean to buy a cup of pure chocolate while our parents went to settle the hotel stuff. After that, we checked in into resort hotel and rested for awhile and head to the mushroom farm to eat our dinner before heading to play the indoor theme park. We played a few slow rides, bumber car and a roller coaster which I felt it was very boring. Well, that's about it.

On the 4th day, unfortunately, the outdoor weather was bad. We could not play at all, so we once again played the indoor for the whole day. It was kind of boring playing the same thing again and again, half way through the day, we also went shoppping and i brought 1 shirt and a pants, which was not considered cheap=/. At night at 11.30pm, we went to watch golden compass. It was a utter disappointment. The story has no head and no tail. It's started off from the middle without explaining anything. My sisters were confused and fell asleep during the movie, while I was there trying to comprehend what is the movie trying to tell me about. After that, we went back to our rooms to sleep till................... 9am on the next morning.

We ate breakfast at the nearby "coffee shop"(not sure if it's considered as a coffee shop) and later packed our stuff, and checked out of the hotel. Before the coach came, we had some time to shop around. I accompany my mom to the tea shop. On the way, we passed by a chocolate shop and brought some chocolate home. At the tea shop, my mom brought a few boxes of green tea, some herb to make tea eggs and also tea eggs. The tea eggs were delicious where i felt it could not be found here. Well, after this, we board the coach and head back. T-H-E= E-N-D..

Here are some photo I had taken there(all taken in Cameron Highlands, didn't have much chance to take photo at Genting):

Hehe~~ Slacking in my school's library now. 1hour and 22 minutes before my next paper starts. I had just done my PIPC2 paper in the morning. The paper was pretty simple with some tricky questions here and there. I'm afraid that I"ve not added sufficient answer to some questions, and i got some of my questions wrong. The answer to my graph question was slightly different from the others. *sob* Hope I could get an A for my paper. Anyway, its over, I should look forward instead of looking backwards.

The next paper i be sitting, which is soon, is CSAS2. There is not much stuff to study as it is something like a language-based subject. Just a pass in this subject will do as I'm horrible in subject that deals with languages=(. After today, 2 papers down and 3 more to go. It's already around half way through my team-test period.

Right now, I don't really know what to do. The anime loads very slowly which bore me. That makes me decided to write a new blog entry. Probably after this I would play some mini games on miniclips and revise abit on my CSAS before entering the examination area.

Oh yes! If you realised, I've changed my blogskin a little, and a new song=p. It's featuring the new anime I've been watching recently. In 4 days, I completed 2 season of that anime and also halfway though season 3. I dare not say I'm very fast, but i really watched alot of episode even when the term test is near. But of course, I also planned my study time to study for my examinations.

Right now actually, I'm quite happy. No more emo-ing as what I did in the past few months. I've already accepted the fact that the world is cruel. Doesn't matter if my 'friends' leave me out on things or not anymore. All I need is just support from my family which they had already given me alot. This is sufficent to make me happy. I've learn this: What for give your happiness away when you can keep it for yourself?

I had learn this, true friends are friends that accept who you are and what you are, and not leaving you out in anything, share thoughts with you, lend a listening ear to you, there for you when you are in trouble. By watching Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha, it actually shows me how true friends treat each other, with care, love and concern. Though it's just an anime, i feel its a perfect analogy that protrays what true friends should be like in real life.

Hmm i think i should go and play some mini games to cool my nerves down before going for examination=). BYE! See ya next time.

Drift Drift Drift~~~ I'm getting out of the group.... I've changed. I feel now a days, I seemed to be more serious and didn't really joke around. Now i don't even have the motivation to join in, even if I'm left out, I didn't bother to do anything about it. Actually it bothers me, just that I know that i would not be able to do anything. Something i heard today upset me. I was really LEFT out. If that person didn't said it, I would not have know. Even these few days, I wasn't really sitting with them, which i usually was. Hey people, if you don't like me or anything, please tell me straight at my face, don't just quietly leave me out like this. At least I know the reason why I'm left out or such.

Exams are around the corner, and I'm still in my holiday mood. I had just done 3 chapters of PIPC2 notes so far, though i read and studied them, I'm still not confident that i got all the information as I was either msning or watching tv when i was studying. Hope my exam mood would turn on before the exam started. I really need someone to force me to study as, me in nature doesn't have the habit of studying. My class has several people who are studying really hard. It bothers me, since I'm really slacking. Whenever i reach home, the first thing i do is turn on my computer and play games/chat. If there's nothing to do, I'll just browse my computer files and tidy up my computer, or i research on something new about computer stuff. Man... I'm such a no-lifer. What to do? A person with a life having small circle of friends could not do much. It's not like i want it, it's probably I'm lousy at making friends, and probably my attutude sucks. Now, I don't really care about my dressing nor my hair which I did cared for a short period of time, no idea why... Probably it's beacause I didn't care anymore on how people look at me.

Today, during my PIPC2 lessons, the lectuerer said about why certain compunds are coloured to our eyes. I was thinking, in actual, does everything around us has colours? Or we are probably living in a world of black and white, just that our eyes show us a illusion of the world. The world may not be as nice as what we see. Sigh... Its probably the world that I'm living now..

Guess people who read untill this point despite my hard-to-read colour font, would be my friends who don't minds me or someone who like reading blogs or even my secret admirer? LOOL. Nah, its impossible for someone like to have one.

Ok i think its time to go. Probably play dota or my psp before I sleep. Gotta do one qn someone requested me to do tml otherwise i would get killed=X. NIGHT!

Today, I was walking back home from the MRT station.It was very windy and cold. While walking, memories, or rather my thoughts filled me.

This very path I walked, has seen though my path of life so far. I was lonely when i first walked this path, as times goes-by, she entered my life which made my life more motivated, at the same time, I lose something. Sounds like Sn1 reaction X_X.. Ok back to my thoughts.. Now, walking past this lane, I'm all alone again.... I'm thinking... Does true love exist? It strikes me when i watched enchanted.

Like the guy says, in this era, there aren't such thing as true love anymore, it's just the ability to last a long relationship till the end thats all. Thinking of this, I rethink again, what is life? Study? Play? Work? I initially thought life was interesting with a partner to share your dreams, ideals, feelings, and to provide mentally support, but again, I guess is not. So what's life? I'm starting to believe that "power" of love between a couple is just a myth, and also starting to doubt the word "love". Two hearts beating in one is impossible, having a telepathy is even more impossible. Relationship are short-lived, and I don't like it.

There's one thing I don't like about myself. I feel I'm not dependant-able. I guess i feel i can't do anything right. Thats one reason why I didn't find a job. I know I'm not cut out for it. I'm some one which people should not depend on me as i can't produce results. Bleh bleh~~=(

Ok enough talking about these stuff. Today i went to my friend's dad thai restaurant. It was FREE! My another friend who was a birthday boy was feeling gulity and wanted to pay my friend, while I and another guy have no intention of doing so. Why? I feel very gulity now. Its like, I'm only seeking for free stuff, and it's probably a problem in my attitude.

After that, we went to find cinema to watch Enchanted. We first when to somerset's cineleisue (not sure spelling), but tickets were sold out. So we walked all the way to a bus stop to take a bus to PS. While walking, there were lots of christmas tree, Santas and Santarina(new term my friend told me =X)There, we walked further down from PS to a place where the grand Cathay cinema was. Fortunately there was ticket, but at a time slot where one of my friend feared he was unable to make it. But in the end, he negotiated with his parents, and was able to watch with us. When i entered the cinema, I was stuned. The cinema was big, the screen was huge and the cinema design was awesome! GOSH! The ticket was cheaper than GV's and the quality of seats I get were more of a higher class than GV! I shall watch movie there next time=X.

After this, you should know what had happened, so i shall not repeat again=). Time to go cyaz!.