Woo the BFA test was ok.. I thought I was finished hehe... Anyway, after the BFA lesson, it was raining heavily and it's very sunny. It's the first time in my life that I see this kind of beautiful scenery. If you look from an angle, the falling rain drops seems like snow. I also saw a rainbow while walking to the bus stop. Here's the shot I took using my phone:



Well everything really ended very fast. Seems good things are always quick to end while bad things are slow huh.. Hehe...

Well just wanted to post this picture and I'll go study some OC later as there's a test this coming Thursday. See ya for now. JA!

Hmm 1 hour more before my BFA test... Well, actually I planed to study my BFA after my TD lecture in the library, but now, I'm typing my blog! I had already done 1 past year paper and was glad that I had done it as after doing it, I learn things that I didn't know. I also ate a packet of chocolate while doing the paper! lol!

Oh ya and before my some of my classmates went to their BFA test, I told them the wrong stuff! OMGT_T... Lucky they ended up checking it. Well I really felt very bad. I thought it was right, which was my opinion. I didn't really hear my mom's teaching carefully I guess.

SORRY to those whom I told you the wrong stuff. Well I guess those people won't see my blog either lol...

Bleh... now I'm alone. Actually there was a friend whom was with me, but he went to accompany another one of my classmate, leaving me alone X_X. Seems to me that person was a better friend to him as compared to me=/.

Tomorrow's the speech for my CSAS. Gosh I'm so nervous. I'm afraid that when I'm on the stage, I'm not able to think the sentences properly before saying it out, and it would end up slumbering over them which really makes my speech not fluent. Sigh... I really hope that I could get a good marks for it. I'm really really worriedT_T...

It's kind of boring being here now. I don't really know what to do now. Probably I would read my notes abit before I go to my anime planet website to update some anime that I've watch since there's some cookie problem as my computer at home which it works fine here.

Well, I don't really have much stuff to say now, see you guys next time then.. JA!

Hmm.. Just did finish my editing for my speech and also did the diagram i needed for my TD mini-project. Gosh, days are getting very boring... Tomorrow's my BFA test. Hope I'm able to do well in it without much effort! lol! I know it's impossible... But I'm really lazy to study now-.-". Ever since I got ditched, I lost my competitive stance, well probably in the past, I was struggling to be at her standard as she's studying in JC while me, even though I'm in poly, we promised to meet at university. Well, seems that stress is gone, I don't really have much motivation to really study very very very hard. I'm just like... when there's test I study, when there's tutorial I try to do it. Other than that, I'm slacking. I'm not like those people who have alot of passion for this course that they would go home and read through their notes everyday, in other words, I'm not consistent.

Anyway, my results are dropping now and I'm not bothered to pull these grades up either. I doesn't matter if everyone gets ahead of me which was what I thought. Anyway no one really take notice of me. It seems I'm just a invisible coat in my click, or what you call a loner in a click. I don't participate in those "rough-play" that my classmates did to each other as I feel it really hurt the other person a lot, nor I really tell them about my opinion before as I know none will listen. Well, it's fun even if I'm there to just overlook what they did everyday. Guess that's enough for me.

Yesterday, while buying my shoe for my formal presentation, I suddenly felt dizzy again. I wonder if I've some sort of high pressure, and it's signalling me symptoms of a stroke. Well, if it's really so, my days may be numbered I guess. I don't really have much thing to regret now as I don't have any aims in life now. Like now, even I don't really like my course, I continued to study as though it's compulsory. What if I'm gone now, who would remember me? Probably my families and relative. Well guess that's good enough. LOL omg I'm so pessimistic.

I was staring at my computer screen just now for awhile, without knowing what to do. Which was why I typed this entry. Seems that I'm really getting bored as stuff. Maybe I'm still interested in anime, but I'm just too lazy to do anime hunting as it's very tiring. I wanted to memorised my revised speech, but again, I'm just too lazy (but of course I'll memorise it before Wednesday). Lazy people like me are probably useless or a disgrace to the community I guess. I can't be a help to anyone.

Hmm... I think I'm going to have my dinner now. See ya all for now. JA!

Konbawa~! It been 3 days I never updated my blog already. Well life's is kinda boring and I don't really have much thing to say. Today I write this blog entry as a purpose to use it as an excuse to slack off from my stuff(although I've been slacking the whole day).

Anyway, today morning I went to do newspaper collection from the residence near my school. Well, actually it's the first time I ever did this kind of stuff. I seen many different types of people during my collection. There were some people who even was at home but did not bother to open the door when I knock on them asking for newspaper, and there were also people who gave their newspaper to us very generously. Seems that every where there is an extreme of people huh... Haha... Anyway after that, my friends and I went on to meet at TM and ate lunch together. We also ate dinner the previous day where we brought our formal attire from G2000. It was the first time I ever went to buy clothes with my friends, and really had alot of fun. But I guess that was a valuable time, and it would not happen again, at least not so soon. I didn't know that buying clothes with friends is really fun till this hehe....

Well, I'm feeling much happier now as compared to last time. I don't really know the reason, but probably the words from my friend is taking effect on me even thought I'm did not really take it in I guess. Anyway, I really hardly watch anime now. I don't know what anime to watch... SOB, and due to my projects and tests, I don't reall have the mood (not the time) to do anime hunting, as I feel that my mind is not in peace.

On Thursday, I went to CO and there was no people there (as in those newbie like me) except ZH, someone whom can considered as a friend to me. Even though we were the only 2 newbies there, the pros came and teach us new songs. I feel it was really fun as compared when the whole group of people was there. I'm really able to improve very fast as compared when practicing in a group. That time was sort of like a private lesson. I stayed till 8.30, which was the latest I ever stayed for CCA. Seems that it's getting fun and I'm looking forward to the next practice.

Recently, the O-level results were released. My friend and one of my cousin were the "victim" of it. They had trouble deciding what course they should join and can join. I'm not very worried about my friend as his results were still fine to enter many of the polytechnic courses, but on the other hand, I'm kind of worried about my cousin. It seems that she is in a dilemma in her choices. I think I should give her some advice about it as the deadline for the course selection is coming to an end soon.

Thinking about this, I backtracked my thoughts to the time where I got back my o-level results. When I see my results, I was actually depressed for a long time. I guess till someone broke up with me. I was not happy that I'm not capable to enter the same school as her at that time, and was afraid that she might because of it get further apart from me(which it had happened). Well, all is well now, there's a saying : "Saying good bye is the end of one story and the beginning of another". Though here is some part of me still clings on to the past, the rest of me is still able to move forward for the future. I guess this means by restarting one's life but not starting back from zero, but from a the point where a new story can be unfolded, DA CAPO! I remembered during my PAE, I went to MJ and before the release of o-level results, my form teacher let us listen a song named 'Unwritten' sang by Natasha Bedingfield. Although it is not a song which would make anyone likes it, the lyrics are very meaningful.

Here is the starting of the song:

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned.

Guess my book's still not filled and it's time to continue to write it I guess...

Hmmm Anyway it's kind of late now and I think I'm going to read some BFA notes and memorise my speech before starting to play my stuff, or maybe watch anime if I have anime to watchT_T. Ok see ya then! JA!

TAIHEN TAIHEN!!!! I got choosen as a tutor... I shall be the world's most lousy tutor-.-... I guess I need tutoring instead of tutoring people you know... But teacher just choose me. Actually I didn't want to as I know I'm not up to it. But he said that I was not being fair and so I was "forced" oh well.. Hope my tutee would not screw up with a lousy tutor like me. Sobz

Wahh!!! I'm going mad! Projects, tests, homework! Omg... I don't know where to start with now. If i study later in the night, for sure I would feel sleepy and fall asleep on my homework or my books again. SIGHH.. Someone help meT_T... Oh well.. Guess the only people I can depend on is me, myself and I hehe....

Today again, I didn't went with my classmates out to eat. One reason, I got HOMEWORKS AND TESTS TO STUDY!!! ARghh.. Otherwise, it would be the first time I ever go with everyone. Bleh! Damn those homeworks and tests and today, I realised my sling bag stripe is spoiled! ARGHH... I need to buy a new bag-.-"... or maybe not. Gosh today's a very messy day. I think I'm going to start off with my math's lecture practice first before continuing to my studies and my anime. Wah! First time I'm putting my anime after my work. lol~ I still have to research and make my ppt. slides for my CSAS formal presentation, and I need to buy my formal clothesT_T. Oh well..

Ok see ya for now!~ JA~!

LOL!! Guess what I found this essay in my computer and it's one which I wrote before for my GP. Can't believe that someone who has such a lousy command in english could write out an essay like this. Although it's not as good compared to those english pros out there, but to me, it's considered as a very good essay, which I think I could never be able to write in my life. Just for memories, I shall post the essay here. Skip the red font if you don't want to read it.

What are some of the qualities teenagers today need to develop in order to succeed in the 21st century?

The 21st century is an era filled with uncertainty and challenges. This differs from the past whereby the people are less faced with challenges. Though there is no doubt that people in the past do not have a comfortable life. But as compared, to the people in the current 21st century, people in the past suffers from labour hard work, while people in the present needs to face the music of heavy responsibility and challenges. They also have to be mentally prepared to face the uncertain future which may not be pleasant. Hence, to prepare the population to have a positive outlook and mentally prepared for this challenging era, certain qualities are needed to be inculcated in teenagers, so as to ensure that they are ready to face the 21st century. I shall elaborate more of these qualities in the following paragraphs.

Since the Asian Financial Crisis struck in 1997, Asian’s economy was greatly affected. Many jobs were lost and people became jobless. The rate of unemployment had risen significantly. Hence, this emphasized the greatness of critical thinking. Critical thinking enables the reduction of unemployment. From the political aspect, the government is able to help in unemployment indirectly if they were to think critically, one of such aspect is that they could reduce the taxes on firms and hence firms would have more revenue. Move revenue means that firms do not need to retrench their employees. From the firm’s aspect, firms could act critically by reducing salaries of employees and also employers. This generates more revenue and workers are not needed to be retrenched. As for personal aspect, one should think critically and should decide to upgrade him or herself. In this way, employers will value the more skillful ones and this helps oneself to keep his or her job. Though the Asian Financial Crisis is over, but people should be more vigilant. This may happen anytime and the people must always be mentally prepared. Since teenagers are the future of the workforce, they need to possess the ability to think critically.

The next quality is the ability to persevere. There is a saying which goes: “Perseverance is the key to success”. Behind many stories of successful people such as Thomas Edison whom was a renowned scientist, the quality of perseverance is always found in them. Thomas Edison inventions had benefited mankind. One of such invention was the light bulb. The light bulb was not invented in one night. Although Thomas Edison had failed many times, he did not give up and still continues to persevere to continue his path of the light bulb invention, which eventually was successful. Looking back at successful stories of people, perseverance can be seen as one of the key qualities to overcome the tough challenges laid in the 21st century. Hence, in order for teenagers to survive and to be successful in the ordeal of the 21st century, they must know how to persevere and not to give up easily when a problem arises.

Perseverance and critical thinking is not enough to be successful in the 21 century. Another quality needed is the ability to take risks. Another term for taking risk in this case is known as entrepreneurship. This involves venturing risks in businesses which may have pleasant or unpleasant outcome, this range from being a multi-millionaire to going bankrupt. But why do people need entrepreneurship? Every country needs entrepreneurs. Entrepreneurs have the ability to bring investments to a country. Not only this affects the country, if successful, entrepreneur themselves gains lot of benefits such as a luxurious life. If unsuccessful, it would be the flipside of it. Teenagers which are the future of every country need to be inculcated with risk-taking mindset. This allows one to be successful in the workforce and also help to benefit the country’s economy.

Looking back at the qualities which consist of critical thinking, perseverance and courage to take risks, they are similar to traits that people are required, to be successful in the past. For example, if an epidemic had strike the farms, thinking critically, the farmer would quickly switch to an alternative crop. Otherwise, the farmer may not have enough food to feed their family or losses would be incurred. Growing crops on the farm is not an easy task. The farmer also needs to have a strong will to work under the hot sun to grow their crops. This the past where there are no comprehensive guides whereby certain crops need certain fertilizers, farmers need to experiment on different fertilizers for the optimal growth of their crops. This example had demonstrated that indeed, people in the past require these qualities. The only difference in the past and the 21st century is that people in the 21st century are faced with economic challenges while people in the past experience survival challenges.

In conclusion, in order for teenagers to be successful, they need to be not only mentally prepared but also they are required to possess these three qualities as stated. Only then will teenagers be able to go across tough challenges that they would face in the future and walk towards the path of success.

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Today's CSAS consultation and I did not do my ppt slides. Well, I don't plan to do it either, I got my working draft, so I guess I would be able to scrape through today's comsultation. I still have like 20 questions of my AM tutorial to be completed. AH not to forgot, my PIPC tutorial. Omg I'm so dead-.-.. And now, I don't even know how to do my lecture practice, I'm so FINISHED ARGHH.....................................................................

-_-" Ok enough of my whinning. Guess there's sometime before I would be heading to school. I'm going to watch anime till then. So see you guys next time!... Or maybe later=). Ja!

Taihen!!!!! My TD test is really going to have just a pass probably. Can't get a distinction T_T.. Oh well, guess that's the price I would have to pay for not studying properly. Well I don't really have the mood to study for it too. Anyway, I have lots of homework now to rush and I feel like slacking lol. As usual, I'm feeling sleepy again. Sobz...

Wa today was the submission of the OC2 Assignment. Gosh, it was really fanatic. The minutes for the last meeting were not done properly and the dates were wrong, and there were some things not added-.-. Spend almost 45mins trying to sort out the report. I guess as compared to others, our report was not as well done as them. I've not really read through others' report, but using my inferential skills, I feel our report are inferior to the others. I won't really expect high results on this report=/.

Oh ya I got back my OC and my BFA quiz paper. Well, for my OC paper, the score is considered good I guess, but to me and comparing with my peers, it was not very fantastic. Therefore, I wasn't really very delighted as my results, but rather I was feeling neutral along with abit of disappointment, while for my BFA paper, I got a result which I was slightly disappointed at it. I expected it to me 1-2 marks near the perfect marks, but unfortunately, I got 5 marks away. Well for a low composition marks test, a small marks difference which result in a big percentage change in the overall result. I need to read instructions more as most of marks were lost from there I guess.

Just watched two anime on my tv, and I realised that I have trouble watching as the subtitle was small as compared to when I'm using my computer screen. Now this new anime I watching is Saiunkuko monogatari. A name really hard to remember.(I refered to a website just to type this name =X). Well till now at episode 5, it looks like a typical olden kind of chinese drama, but the only difference is that it is in the anime form. The plot of the story is about some girl who is really poor got married to the young king by name. She's supposed to change the king to a better person in half a year in reward for 500 gold pieces, but I guess as the drama goes on, they would fall in love and things starts to happen, just like a normal drama you would see on TV. This show has a really high rating at a anime info site, guess I would continue watching it.

Well I think that's enough for today, I think I would go paly a dota match before tackling my homework=p. Anyway see you next time! Ja~

OMG OMG I'm SO SLEEPY...........................................

I wanted to read my TD notes but I didn't read much, I was feeling really really sleepy. Hey, now adays I've no idea why, but I been feeling very very sleepy more easily. Omg man... Now I cant really pay attention to lecture except only in the first hour of the day. What happened to me-.-" I've been slacking but I'm so tired AHHH!!!!!~~~~ I don't even have the en-er-gy to watch anime. Oh well... My eye are really closing now actually lol, just thought of posting a blog entry before I sleep, or hopefully would feel refresh after typing an entry.

Tomorrow's the test, I feel like giving up. First time since a long time I ever given up to study for a test. It shows I'm really really tired lol! Anyway, I watched Da capo II till episode 12. It's episode 13 is not subbed for a month already! I wonder would it ever get subbed? Anyway the storyline is aren't as good as it's previous ones, I just watch it for fun as it's opening song is nice=).

Today's bus stop was full of people, at first I thought what was the special occassion today that so many people sudden appear. Later on I realised that the train service from pasir ris has some problem, so everyone ended up taking buses. Well, I guess today there would be lots of people being late for work and school.

Well before I take my leave, I found this interesting song: Hajimari no Kaze from Saiunkoku Monogatari, here is the lyrics in english!

Wind of beginning, deliver this message
Because I will always believe in you

Though I am now standing in the world that I once saw in a dream
As I look out at the scenery my legs tremble slightly
But I won’t look back, because I decided to keep moving forward
The seven colored rainbow I see in the sky, I wonder if you can see it too

Wind of beginning, deliver this message
Because I’ll be watching your back as you run after your dreamWandering wind, carry these feelings
Because I will always believe in you
For all of the future

If someone is thinking about the person they hold dear
No matter who they are they will have a kind look on their face
The path through time is endless, keeping going without giving up

Wind of beginning, deliver this message
I’ll be waiting for you at the end of your long journey
Wandering wind surpass your destiny
Because I believe that my feelings will get through to you
Someday, when we meet again, show me your smile

Wind of beginning, deliver this messageI’ll be waiting for you at the end of your long journeyWandering wind surpass your destinyBecause I believe that my feelings will get through to you
There is nothing to fear, because you exist

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Another nice Japanese song with a nice english translation=). It's avaliable on Imeem, you can take a look there^^

Bleh... Seems I really have not much stuff to say today, kinda sleepy and can't really think well. So.... see ya then! I would add more on my next post=). ja!

Oh YES!!! D.C.S.S completed! As compared to the first season, I still prefer the first season as it's more thrilling I guess. Season two is more centered on Aisia which was a new character in this season. But all is well! Nemu and Juni'chi got married wee=) Here's shot:

They look happy huh=p.(Of course they are)

Anyway now I've to complete D.C II. I'm stucked at episode hmmm.. 8? I think... Well, I'm like losing my anime staminaT_T. I've been watching lesser anime now adays, instead, Ispent more on blogging, finding applications for my psp, looking for songs, viewing Japanese singers profiles, finding Japanese lyrics, and of course my projects and tutorials. I don't seem to have to mood to complete my tutorial now, nor I've the mood to study. I also don't really have the mood to watch anime. I feel like slacking around doing nothing. Kind of bored now. No one to chat with nor talk to... Ah.. Enough of my whining.

Yup! I changed my blog's song again. It's named chime to me by yozuca*. Well, I used an off vocal music as I think the music's melody is nice=). This song is actually an insert song. As in a song that appears inside the anime. It's hard to find insert songs on imeem, and infact I wanted to buy the completed set of vocal collection for Da Capo. From my information, I can't find anywhere here that sells anime albums, except online. I found the price of the CD online and it cost $40 dollars! GOSH! Well, the anime has a few albums, and if I wanted to buy all of those, I would need at least a $100 dollars. Actually, it's worth the money as the songs are really nice, but the setback is that I don't have a credit card=(.

Hey! Have you ever tried to do something out of kindness and got mistaken instead? Yesterday when I was out and was at the food court, my dad saw a couple who could not find a place. He told them that there would be a better chance if they search deeper inside the food court. But unfortunately, the couple mistaken as my dad wanted to take the seat they have been eying for. Oh well... Actually, it happened to me before which I guess I only tell it to one person before and I guess that person already long forgotten about it. Now I'm going to tell it to everyone who read this blog!=D. There was one time where I was in the bus and saw a couple board the bus. There was an empty seat beside me, as well as an empty seat behind me. Well, if that is so, the couple has to sit separately. I actually wanted to let my place to them and sit behind, while trying to do that, I guess the couple mistaken me that I'm hitting on his gf, and in return, I received a stern look. I was feeling kind of.... no idea how to explain it. So I just returned to my seat without giving it up to them. Well, thats human I guess, not to trust strangers.

Hmm..,I think I'll try to find something to do now. It's really getting boring.... Ok see ya then Bai-bai!

Ohayou!!! (Spelt the wrong romanji the other time). Just watched finish ~Da capo season 2~ episode 24. Something made me not want to continue watching till the last episode of the season. Probably it's because I don't want such a nice anime to finish that fast. I want to know the ending, but I don't feel like watching when it is at climax now. I won't say anything abt the story now. Probably at my later post, I would write another review about it=).

Anyways, today.. eh no.. yesterday my family and I went to the temple. Later, my dad and I went to SimLim square, while my mom and my sisters went to bugis junction. I brought a external hard disk 120gb for $120. It was pink in colour! Gosh-.-.... They do not have other colours and the price for it was quite cheap. So despite it being pink, I still brought it=X. Anyway I brought it beacause I want to backup files from my computer. One day if my computer fails on me, my precious files won't be lost. It seem alot of time is needed to backup those files and the transfer rates of USB is really very very very slow.

Other than this, I also went to Bugis Junction later on. Brought a pair of new slippers and also a new jacket! I like that jacket! Though the weather here is hot, I guess I won't have much chance to wear it. But!! I decided to wear it everytime I go to school regardless if it's hot or not.

Oh ya. I've been listening to songs while I was out. It seems that there were 4 songs that I would not yet sick of it no matter how many times I hear them. They are: Sakura saku mirai koi yume, Sakura kimi ni Emu by yocuza* , little wish by Yukari Tamura, and Kuuchuu Meiro by marble. These were also songs from animes which I thought was quite good. Come to think of it, there are no anime album sold here. I went to Sembawang cd shop today and my mom asked the salesperson about it even though I didn't want to ask, she said they don't sell those. Guess those album aren't sold here. I saw those albums on one online website which were selling for quite a high price. 10 sound track for 40sgd. It's crazy. Well, I guess when the things are rarer, the price are also higher. I really want to get the OST for Da capo as the anime has really alot of nice songs.

Bleh~~ I'm kind of like having this "hack care" attitude to my tests. I don't really want to study for my test. I feel like failing it. It has been a long time where I had adopted this feeling. Probably as far as I remember, 3 years ago, when I was merry-ing around, and failing almost on every test and exams. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? Oh well...

I don't really know what I want in future, that is probably why I don't have the willpower to study hard. Well if actually, I want to study in a Japan University, I want to make friends with Japanese people as they are known for their friendliness, I guess... that's a impossible dream. Even if it happens, I have not been to Japan before. What if that place disappoints my expectations? I'm sure to get really upset, more ever, if I study there, it means by living alone and away from my family, and this is when, I'm really really alone... Guess there is no one who know me would have this same thought though. Well... dosen't matter, as long as I hope for it, it's fine even if it don't happen.

Well it's kind of late now. Got to sleep! Oyasmumi~! See ya tomorrow! Erm.. no probably later=p.

What if one day, you have a charm that fulfills all your desires? Would you be happy? Well, for sure, everyone would be happy. In chinese there is a saying "Yao feng de feng, yao yu de yu". It literally means what ever you want will always happen. Well if it's possible for the world, won't everyone in the world be happy?

BUT! Have you thought that if you are happy at something, someone out there would be disappointed. For example, if you are top in class, and feeling happy, there is sure to be someone who is at the bottom of the class and he/she would be feeling unhappy. It's a balance between happiness and unhappiness of the world. If a charm that makes you happy, won't it be a curse that makes another one unhappy? [Happiness Equation : Happiness = Unhappiness]

What if.... in possession of that, one day if your feelings tell you that you hate that person, and that person really disappeared from the world, won't you be living in guilt? You may be happy for awhile, in exchange, the person's family and friends would be unhappy. Having a charm to fulfill desires is a dangerous tool which one should not even desire to have it.

Well, probably when I feel sad, someone out there is taking the place of happiness for me. It's probably a consolation for myself as I know I made someone happy=).

LOL another inspiration entry=X. Well, at times I would reflect on these kind of stuff, that is why I'm weird I guess.

Well today, I wanted to ask my mom something and her reply made me very frustrated. I've no idea why too. Probably she did not answer my question and started to saying something else. I don't like this part of me. She didn't mean any harm to me but me... I felt frustrated. Arghh... I would really want to change this part of me.

Just a few days ago, I talked to one of my friend's friend after getting ps-ed. I compared him and myself. He was really interested in chE, while for me, I just study because it's something I need to complete. I really could see the enthusiasm of him in lectures, while for me, I wished breaks would come soon. I felt stupid. Though I don't really like the course, I tried to study for it, and if I don't understand anything, I didn't really bother to understand them. I seems that I'm such a failure. I don't even have the right attitude to start with, and I want to score distinctions in my exams. LOL

Argh... Till now, I don't really have an idea of what I'm going to do in future. It seems that life is really boring. Why doesn't something special happens to me to make my life more colourful. It's really very monotonous. Everyday's rountine is like this: Wake up in the morning -> Go school to suffer mentally -> come back home -> watch anime. It repeats day after day, and if there's homework or test, I of course would study for it.

It seems that I forgot that I still have my CSAS project to do-.- argh... I guess I'll do my OC project first. Cya then!

Wah.. Today was a very... tiring day I supposed. My group didn't know much on what to do for PBL, so end up today, which is the deadline, we have not completed anything. We only completed in time for submission today, and it spent about 6 hours, using 3 people's effort. It was really tiring. Oh gosh, projects are really irritating-.-" I still have OC, BFA projects to complete. BFA I've no idea what to do nor my group has organised a meeting before, while for OC, it's kind of screw up. There was supposed to be OC meeting today, but ended up, as my other group members were also rushing to do PBL, they didn't have time for the meeting, and ended up it was cancel without able to compile anything. OC's deadline is soon and I hope that it could be done by thenT_T. Anyway I don't really know what I'm supposed to do. I completed my part, and now, I didn't know what to do. Well, I want to help in others part too!

Well, I just watched a few more episode of Da Capo Second Season (D.C.S.S). It was... no comment? heh.. Anyway I watched the finale of Da Capo (1st season) again. I caught the phrase there which I think it was quite meaningful, "People says you can't reset life like a game, but when you stumble, you can start all over again, just that you don't start from zero" Well don't really know the significance of it now as I'm not suffering from any downfall of results, or probably, not getting any impact from those bad results=X. So having this in mind, I went to check what's "Da Capo" meant. Actually, "Da Capo" is found in musical score as D.C. This means to repeat the song from the start, which was quiet relevant to the phrase I just said earlier. The creator of the show was quite a smart one I should say, the title which is an abstract corresponds to the storyline.

Oh here's a translated lyrics from one of the song from Da capo Season 2 in one of it's episode. In short, an insert song. It has a nice melody and of course, lyrics.

The harmony of the gentle wind melts in my heart,
As if it's spinning my memories together.
When I close my eyes, I see a sunny scenery.
Because I've met you.

Overflowing gently, my droplets of love,
They turn into warmth in my heart.

I want to let you hear my wish dyed with happiness.
I want to stay by your smile forever.
The flowers of light blooming in the sky chase away the darkness,
And let me sing with joy.

Do I know the real me?
With the pain of doubt and uncertainty,
The two of us spread our wings towards the unknown future.
Will we cuddle together in the wintry wind?

If I keep thinking about you, will it turn into love?
The radiance and tears that interrupt the night sky.

The more I wish the more my heart hurts from the singe.
But even so, I can't help blushing because of my love.
I'm satisfied with just you and my unanswered feelings.
I love you, so walk with me.

I want to let you hear my wish dyed with happiness.
I want to stay by your smile forever.
The flowers of light blooming in the sky chase away the darkness,
And let me sing with joy.
My love for you.

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Well, this song is kind of sad. It's saying about someone loving another person whom love another person. Kind of a love-chain, but knowing that the person she likes was happy with the person he likes, she was satisfied even though she could not be together with him. Well I guess that's what love is about huh?

Actually, I don't really have a close friend who would listen to me. Even the one I wanted to be good friend with, totally ignored me when I said my problem to him. I was kind of disappointed. Sometimes at night before I sleep, I would feel very depressed. It usually happens at night. I don't really have an idea why. It seems that it's going to be the end of the world. Sometimes when I feel too happy, I missed being sad and would try to be sad. Lol! I'm just so weird. It seems that I prefer to be sad as compared to being happy. Probably I need attention X_X. Well, it's an uncontrollable feeling I guess, and I think not much people are willing to make friend which such a emo person.

Well.. time for dinner! Itakakimasu!

Ohaiyo! Its early in the morning. Just watched finish my dose my anime for the morning=X.. 10mins for before I'm heading to school, as there's not much time for me to watch another anime, I decided to use this 10mins to type a blog entry.

Hmm actually, I watched the wrong season of Da Capo which makes me thought that season 2 was bad-.-. In fact, I was actually watching season 3, which I had only realised yesterday. It was as usual, nice storyline. The opening song was not as good as the ones in season 1 and 3 though, and seems that yozuca* (not sure why there is an * there) sings the opening song and CooRie sings the ending song. About the story till now, it was about misunderstandings between Nemu and Juni'chi. Well, the last episode I watched was about how they got together again, clearing all those misunderstanding. Well it was nice=)

Actually from the show, I learned some things. In the past, I thought that when my gf did something new which I didn't know, or had a new mindset, I wasn't happy. Well actually I finally know the reason why, it's beacause I assumed that I knew everything about her, and if I saw something I don't know, I would be unhappy. Well, this attitude was also adopted in Da capo SS, thats why I know about it. So, when starting a relationship, don't assume you know the person well even though you may know he or she for a long period of time, it would help to cause less conflicts.

Yesterday, my classmates went to eat together after school. I didn't tag along as usual. I didn't want to. One reason is that I was tired and wanted to head back home. Another reason is that I don't want to feel left out any longer. For sure, if I go with them, I'm sure to be left out. Even when walking in a group, I'm always lagged behind with no 1 talking to walking beside me. I just listen to what they say and comment and neccessary. Well, I'm getting more used to it now, and I'm not really very very disappointed at these kind of situations now, but of course, there is still tinch of disappointment.

Hey you know what? I've been trying to sing Japanese songs! =X. I put lyrics into my psp and when I'm free outside, I would try to sing along with the song (usually sliently). I'm trying to practice their pouncations, and also at the same time, trying to be able to pronounce the word as fast as how they sings, as Japanese language is a fast language(As in people speaks fast with jap). Well, at the same time, I could sing songs that I like=p. Till today, no friends of mine has the same interest as me. Guess that's probably why I don't get friends. I'm also not really that kind of comedy-type of people.

Well, time out! Time to head for school... Bleh hate school because of.. AH nvm.. Sayonara!

Eyer-.-" Da capo Season 2 is not as nice as it's season 1, but as usual, the songs are equally nice=D. Well this is my 2 reason for continuing to watch an anime:

1. Songs
2. Storyline

If any anime fufills this requirement, I will watch it! Well it seems that storyline is quite a norm, but songs aren't huh? I'm willing to watch anime with nice song although their storyline aren't that good.

Hmm, just wondering, how do you say hi to a person whom you know in primary school but forget his or her name? Well, I noticed not long that there was this girl whom was in the same primary school as me, took same bus at me, at the same bus stop(don't mistaken please-.-). I remember how she looks like, but I just could not remember her name=/. Well, at the next bus stop where I alight to switch bus, I met another familiar primary school's mate face. This time it was a he. It seems that we knew each other but just didn't want to admit, which was the same case as the girl-.-... Oh well, maybe if one day some event happen, we are able to talk! Hey its good, in that way i got friends to go to school together whaha..

When I was eating my dinner just now, my vision suddenly go blur. It was really serious, I could see for a moment, and later, the world is spinning. I tried standing up but couldn't really balance myself. It seems that my body tends to lean to one side, and me on the other hand trying to bring my body back to equilibrium to prevent myself from falling. The feeling was horrible you knowT_T... Wonder what happened to me.

Anyway, the tests today went quite well, I thought i was finished for sure, but it seems that the paper was not very very very super difficult=X. It was average. Well I hope the history about my am paper won't come true again. (Thought I did pretty well, but it turns out not to).

Anyway it's kind of boring when you don't really know what anime to watch. Though tests and project deadlines are near, I still watched animes=/. It seems to be that anime could make my happy. I also don't really know what is my source of my unhappiness. I'm just very unhappy with myself, or probably things around me? Not sure. Just that, "One anime a day keeps depression away". A phrase I got from somewhere which I think it may be true for me=/.

3 more weeks! To my japanese course! I'm really looking forward to it, hopefull I could really speak after 2 and a half mth course(sounds doubtful).

Well, I shall stop here for now, see ya all! Sayonara~

DA CAPO SEASON 1 COMPLETED!!!!!!

Finally I can write an official entry about it, my rating!! 10/10!!! Ya i know its vague-.-" If you are a avid romance story lover, this definitely suit you. Though the story has a bit of ecchi, but relatively, it's not that plentiful as compared to other romance anime that I tried to watch. Next I'm going to type some spoilers, if you wan watch it(recommend you to watch), don't read the next paragraph.(I'll squeeze all in 1 paragraph without paragraphing them)

6 years later, Sakura, Junichi's cousin came back from America to her homeland, a place well known for it's Sakura(Cherry Blossom Tree) which never withers. The reason behind this was that Sakura's Obasan(grandmother)whom was a majou(witch) planted a Magical Sakura Tree in the town which causes non-withering Sakuras. Sakura frequently bullied when she was young, this tree was to protect her, anyone who bullies her would have retributions. The Magical Sakura Tree also grants people wishes that were made under it. Sakura returns to see her beloved cousin Junichi who the person she loved, and wanted to be with him together. Unfortunately, Junichi has a sister(Nemu) who is not blood-related, after years of being together, they started to fell for each other. Sakura was intimidated about why her cousin choose Nemu instead of her. She was filled with jealousy, deep in her, she wished that Nemu didn't exist, hope that all the memories that Nemu had with Junichi would disappear. Therefore, the Magical Sakura Tree heard her desires, and caused Nemu to be ill. Nemu's illness was a weird one, she coughs out Sakura Petals and was terribly weak. Sakura, feeling guilty, she went to destroy the Magical Sakura Tree half-heartedly as deep down in her she still has the "jealousy". For awhile, Nemu got well, but soon later, the Magical Sakura Tree grew back again and her illness got worse. She started to lose memories of her friends. Sakura didn't know what to do, she thought that destroying the tree meant the recovery of Nemu, but since she did it half-heartedly, the Magical Sakura Tree was not destroyed. The "jealousy" of her was still there although it was mixed with guilt, she couldn't admit that she lost to Nemu for Junichi. She was also afraid that Junichi would blame her for causing Nemu's illness, till when Junichi answered her that he would never blame her, and he will always like her(not love). At last, touched by Junichi benevolence, she finally admit that she lost in this romance-battle and the Magical Sakura Tree was destroyed. Well... Everything went back to normal.

Apart from this, there were other characters associated to the Magical Sakura Tree. Since it's a tree of wishes, some people wishes or magical ablility were gone. Well, those part you have to watch it yourself=). They were sad and touching episode though.

Well, as for reflection, I don't really have much to say about. It's a perfect romance anime in my opinion, and it really makes me envious. Well, actually looking at others' romance life is satisfactory for me, even though I'm unable to experience this kind of stuff, I'm still happy by looking and also feeling for them. Well I guess, I'm going to head on for Da Capo season 2! Looking forward to it! Gosh my tests-.-... Bleh~ who cares...

Well then... Sayonara!

Oh man... It seemed I've got possessed in the morning. While sitting in the lecture theare, my mind was blank, the weird thing is, I'm listening to the lecture when I'm not trying to listen. It seems that my thoughts were being controlled, it's like I'm looking through someone's mind. The feeling was really scary, I don't really know how to describe it. Is it because due to too much anime? As usual, I didn't slept well yesterday, when I woke up, my body aches. Oh ya after lecture, I was like half-recovered. But it seems that I was sleep-doing(sleep-eating, sleep-walking etc). I wasn't hungry at all when it was lunch time, I just grabbed a waffle and that was my lunch.

After that, we went to the library, my mind was not focused yet(rather it was not focused for the whole day). I started taking out my organic chemistry notes and plug my ear piece into my ears, as usual I know I'm outcasting myself to everyone, but thats me. Actually I'm really outcasted whether or not I'm listening to music or not. I used it as a form of accompanying me. Music's my friend I guess. People sometimes wonder why I listen to japanese song when I don't understand it. Well, because those songs I listen were those which I had a "feel" for them in those animes, hence those song melody has meaning in it, and thats why i listen to it.(Don't really know how to explain it).

The current anime I'm watching is Da Capo, a romance genre anime. I feel it's quite good as it was the first romance anime that really attracted me to carry on watching. Romance genre anime was perceived by me as boring and dull, but this anime was different. I could really feel the relationship between the characters. It really made me very envious, I too want to experience something like that, I want to experience the feeling of loving someone and not just a normal crush. I wonder is it possible? It doesn't matter if the other party doesn't want me, but I just want to love someone. Lol, weird me, it seems like I'm taking a knife to stab myself, intentionally hurting myself, well I can't help it. To be frank, I'm phobic of relationships already, just once, I'm scared already. Of course I don't blame my ex, rather I blame myself for being unable to meet her expectations. This is probably what I'm afraid of. I even have phobia of just talking to some girl on the first meeting(eg. oritentation), when I even see guys who were bold to ask for numbers on the first meet and got along. Why am I so expectional? I've no idea... I only been able to talk to girls who are probably in my class whom I seen many times and socialise alot, other than that, no way... =X.

Anyway, tomorrow i got 2 tests. I'm not planning to study my BFA though I know I would do real bad. I'm just going to study my OC2 and watch my anime=). Actually when I enter my house, everything I did in school were thrown away. It seems that I entered a different dimension hehe.. Ok I think I shall stop here for now, see ya next time~

Tee hee hee~ Just edited my layout with the help of my friend. Thanks ALOT!!!! If that person is read this=/... Ah~~ Time to watch some anime or play dota~~ Just dropped by to say this=X.. Oh ya before I go, if anyone has anime layout sites, please leave a tag. thanks!!!

*Poof*

Sigh... Can't have a good night sleep again... It seems a very very long time where I do not have dreams or nightmares at night. These factors are things that do not bring your body to rest at night. In fact, they adds fatigue and it causes you to be tired on the next day. Like now, I'm feeling sleepy although I had 8 hours of sleep, which a needed rest by any person. Hmm, if you asked me what I was dreaming, I would not be able to answer you as I immediately forgotten them as soon as I'm awake. It's a mystery, why some dreams that you made are forgotten once you are awake, and nightmares are usually remembered, but of course, there are times where you suddenly woke up, finding your heart beating very fast and didn't know what had happened.

I found out something yesterday. My mom also hates weapon developments. Yesterday my dad was watching some documentary about weapons, me for course, I'm not really interested. My mom walked to the hall and saw the show and started saying "why people keep creating such dangerous weapons and killing innocent people?" Well guess there's someone around me who agrees to it too. I don't really like the way how NS was phrased as. My friend from another country perceive NS as a independent course to make one mature. But, the reason my country used was to defend the country. "If enemy attacks us, we give them 2 times the damage" I heard this from a teacher or a textbook, I can't really recall. If everyone was like this, there would be a forever war in the world, forever revenging, forever killing, annihilating own kind. I think prophecy on when human kind would extinct would probably not be due to natural resources or any other reasons, but due to our folly. Yes, I'm afraid of guns, if possible, I won't even want to hold a real gun in my whole entire life, but seems reality is impossible, entering NS means wielding guns, practicing it(Although I won't mind bows, using it as a purpose of a aiming game).

Oh ya, if you are wondering why I did not continue with my Japanese lessons here, is because i stopped reading the book. Since there are a lot of points in the book which I don't understand, it's better if i leave it to me sensei to teach me. Talking about Japanese, I was searching about Sakura(Cherry blossom tree). From an anime information, Sa represents a god, I can't really remember which god, and kura means sit. So literally, Sakura meant the god sitting. I came across an interesting festival yesterday. It was "Hanami". It's something where you are your friends/spouse/gf/bf come together to walk pass a Sakura park or to eat under it, enjoying the falling Sakura petals. I think it should be a very wonderful sight, as beautiful as falling snow. One day, I hope to participate in Hanami and personally experience these falling Sakura scenes.

Tee hee hee, as usual, I also completed an anime yesterday morning at around 2-3 Am. It was a romance/magic anime named Kamisama Kazuko. I've learnt that in every angelic heart there is devil in it, it's just that the good are more than the evil, while in every devilish heart, there's an angel in it, just that evil and more than the good. The difference of an angel and a devil is only differentiated by a thin line. One can cross between good or bad anytime, it all depends on how one wants.

2 days from now, 2 scary tests! T_T. OC2 and my BFA tests. I'm not really ready for my BFA, but as for my OC2, I do not have much confidence even though I studied. It seems that the information I memorise escapes from my mind everytime when I put down the paper, oh well...
But, I'm kind of sick of my course now. In semester 1, I still had the motivation to study hard for my tests and exam, but now, it seems I'm just forcing myself to study as tests and exam are nearing, this is probably the reason on my the information can't get into my brain since I'm losing interest in it. Someone help meT_T.

At the same time, I'm getting bored about my CCA. It's like.... We new people are treated as extras, and also when we tried to play in whole, the people has high expectations of us when we didn't really receive alot alot of training. I feel like quitting the CCA and join another 1, probably Japanese Club. But my classmate said that the CCA is based on event. As in when there's no event, there's no CCA. Kind of disappointing, I wan to commit myself to a CCA which suits my interests.

Actually I wanted to add something before I end this post, but seems I don't feel like letting others know this private feelings of mine. For your information, I use my blog as a medium to organise my thoughts, thats is if anyone wonder what kind of blogger I am.

I think I shall stop here for today, see ya all next time, bye!

Woo Just watched finish pita ten, another anime. Well, initially I thought that the anime was abit lame, but I watched till the last episode, I feel the anime is not bad at all. It seems that the whole anime has only 1 episode actually. Well time for some spoilers. Don't read if u wan to know watch it!

In the world, angel and demon existed due to beliefs of humans. Angel and demon were known to be ancient enemies where they would try to win on another. Despair was the demon's job while happiness was the angel's job. But this story was different, a super-kind demon came to stay with an angel and made friends with the angel and others, she was well-known between her friends of being kind even though she was a demon. She harbour no evil thoughts but only thoughts about making people around her happy. One day, because of her incapability of being devilish, she was dismissed by the demon council. She disappeared on the next day. Everyone instantly forgotten about her due to the magic, only the angel managed to remember her. The angel later realised that, if people around the demon remembers her, she will return. She conjured a spell for remembering and gave to all the friends that they know. But in turn, she would disappear as she has broke an angel conduct of helping demons. The angel's sister tried to stop her on this but, she replied firmly, "Is making a demon happy, wrong?". The angel's sister was stunned and was unable to answer. Yes, finally after bring back the super-kind demon, the angel disappeared, but not for long. Everyone remembered the angel, soon later, hence she returned to everyone side.

Well the moral of this anime is, angel or demon, we should not classified someone due to their background. There are always black sheeps in a white herd and white sheeps in a black herd. We should always know the person before giving him/her a bad pov. Well, this anime also shows that strong friendship can create miracles. First anime I watched which protrayed the power of friendship. Though I may not say this is one of the best anime I watched, but it's one of the heart-warming anime i ever watched.

(Mimicking Misha-san)
Tee hee hee hee~ Now this anime is over su~ What should I watch now su? This or that su?~ Hoe... So many anime is the list what to choose su?~ Guess I would watch hayate the butler next and continue my.. hmm can't really remember the name of the anime tee hee hee hee. Ok See ya next time. Sayonara'su~!

Eekks... Its raining outside with thunder! Luckily there's no lighting otherwise I won't be able to sleep. Ya ya call me coward though I'm a guy. I've a tiny heart and I'm easily scared without any morale support. Well this is me=/.

Hey~ It's good to be young. Even I haven't enter adulthood and experience the world, I still wanted to stay as what I am now. I don't care how good is adulthood, with all those freedom of clubbing etc etc. Not really interested in those at all. I don't even like to drink wine-.-.... I want to stay childish, I want to stay as who I'm now. Physically I'm growing, but mentally, it stopped growing LOL!~~ Like today, someone said he don't like to watch those kawaii characters anime. But as for me, I tend to like it, compared to those more mature as serious kind of character anime. Gosh... my mind's like a small kid-.-... I'm attracted to cute things because I think I was "brainwashed" once. Haha...


Actually sometimes I feel that i can't concentrate on many things at once. For example, when I'm playing or watching anime, I won't know what the person beside me is talking about, or may not even feel someone entering the room sometimes. Like today, I was supposed to go to computer lab to do some stuff with my OC group. As my mind was thinking something, I didn't heard what my groupmate told me(to meet in computer lab), and it totally went off my mind. I really felt very... guilty? Hope they won't mark me down or something. I've been trying to do my best for the things they asked me to do, really really did my best, but I'm not sure if the work I done is correct as I did not have any research material from the meetings.

Hmm, tomorrow it's the 2nd round of the impromtu speech. Hope my classmates would do their best and won't screw up. GOOD LUCK EVERYONE! Although I guess no one from my class would bother to read or maybe, most of them aren't.


Sigh... Now I need to hunt for animes again. I want those romance-fantasy romance, or a nice romance genre that is worth watching. I don't really fancy Harem-type(1 guy with many girls crushing on him) animes though. If anyone who reads this has nice anime to recommend me. Go ahead! Leave a tag=)


Ok time to watch anime/dota/sleep. Can't decide what to do at this moment. See you next time!

WOO~~ Another wonderful anime completed! Kami-Chama Karin! -.-"" Its another romance-magic type or anime. At the start of the anime, it was kind of boring as it's mostly those kind of "comedy" type of anime which I don't really fancy alot. Later part in the show, where some weird parts poping up in the series were disclosed. Next paragraph I would post some spoilers. If you are an anime-fan. Don't read it!!!! WATCH IT!

The main story about the anime was... There was a guy and his best friend went to research the power of gods as they thought it was fun where they could use the god's power to do the things they want. Unfortunately, the guy found out something about the god's power which was very destructive. He decided to stop the research as it's going out of hand. But his best friend wanted to continue, to obtain the ultimate god's power. Being afraid of that, he sealed his research into his daughter without letting his best friend know. But soon later, the best friend found out this secret and decided to unseal this research using the Zeus' ring. In accident, the guy's daughter was split into two. The research data was split too, and so, the guy's best friend was unable to obtain the data. He sealed himself into a ring and hope for a chance to get the data again. The guy was worried, he used the power of the gods to reverse time for his wife to become a child again so as to protect her(erased her memory too), while he, made a clone of himself and soon later died off. He told his wife that no matter how far they are, they will always be together. And so, the story begins from here, whereby the guy's best friend came back, trying to reunite the split daughter of his friend.
And Karin, a girl whom was the guy's wife and kazune (the clone) were once again a child and both reunite again to fight the evil doer to save their daughters. The power of wanting to protect, is another power that nothing is comparable to it. Having great power is not for oneself, but for one around us.

A wonderful story plot! Well, it seems that this kind love is gone from the world. Lol why every post about mine is love-.-... Oh well, since I can't expierience these stuff, it's fine looking at how others have it. Yes, I know it's a fantasy, a frictionous love which may not exist in the world, but this word, "love" has a hidden power inside which very very very little people are able to unlock it, which is true.

Ahhh enough of my review. It may be wrong as I may not get what's the story talking about. It was kind of confusing. But I guess, what I wrote here was what I think the anime is about.

Oh ya! Today, I went to eastpoint with my friend to sign up for a Japanese language course. I didn't know that he would agree to join with me. We had a nice talk about his jc life and my poly life. Well, I hope that he would be my close friend from now on, althought I think I'm irritating to him. He don't read my blog too, or he's too busy with his homework I guess, so I doesn't matter if I write something about him here=X.

I went to the language centre and realised that in taking the subject Japanese, there's 10 levels to master, and at the end of every year, there's a exam call JPLT. It kind of like music exam, where they are sorted into grades. I hope I could really converse in Japanese after completing the course. Looking foward to it!

Hmm.. My food's ready, going to have my dinner now! Itakakimasu!

2-entry post special for today!!! -.-" I watched too much anime...

Anyway, something shocking happened today. My impromtu goes fairly well! Wee!!! When I first received my question, I didn't know what to do. The only thing in my mind was "ask a question" Having this thought, I stood up the "stage" and started my speech. Everything I thought was on the spot. Actually I thought that I had already screwed up my speech. But when the teacher asked " Who think that you have not improved since the first time you spoke?" I really think I did a bad job since I can't see myself. Her comment was "Kenneth? I feel you are quite an accomplished speaker" I was shocked actually, and at the same time happy. My crapping got pass this horrible test o.o.

Ah~ Today, many of my classmate wanted to join the OL. I did considered but I didn't really want to as I do not have that kind of "enthu" attitude during orientations. I'm the one who is usually sien at these kind of things. I'm also not confident of being to lead a bunch of people and making them say cheers etc etc. So I guess, unless with morale support, I shall pass this oppotunity.

Bleh... Now my back hurts alot now, I've no idea why. My sprained ankle is not fully recovered after a long long time. It was quite shocking as the previous time I recovered in less than 2 weeks. But now.... ='(..

Ok time to watch anime!!!!! =X.. See ya all!!

Wow... Fate/Stay night was a great anime! Just completed it 5mins ago... Great ending, my friend told me that the ending was kind of lousy and I wanted to see how lousy it was. Seems that it was not as lousy as what my friend said. Come to think of it, probably different people has different perception of stories which allows them to decide whether if it's nice or not.

Well if anyone had my msn, the phrase still applies to this anime: "Memories may be forgotten, but feelings are eternal" Why do I say so? If you didn't met someone you love for a long time, what would you remember about him/her? The things you and her/him done? or the feeling you had for that person? Well answer this yourself, which I probably knew the answer if you are someone who truely love that person.

Uh oh... I haven't read my lab manual. I guess I better glance at it what is going to happen later, otherwise I'm gonna get a hearful scolding from the lecturer again >_<... Ahh... Though the impromtu speech is still relative far from now, I'm still very.... Nervous. Yesterday my classmate said I had the skills to link things together. But I can only do that at a calm state. If I'm nevous, I can't think of anything. My mind would be blank. More importantly, if the topic that I picked is something that i don't understand, ITS OVER!!!!!! Sigh... Hope I could scrape through this horrible testT_T.

I think I would need to stop here. Got to prepare myself for school! See ya!~

"Weeee....." A brand new year 2008! Happy New Year to those who are reading this. Well... If people ask me what's my New Year's resolutions, the only thing I can think of is for myself to be happier this year. Thought people who knows me may think I'm happy everyday. But probably they have totally mistaken me. Yesterday's count down, I was in my room, enclosed. Counting down myself. Kinda sad huh? Well thats me... I felt very lonely. My family didn't really organise a party or so, so I only have my animes and my game to accompany me.

Tomorrow's the "real" reopening of the school. Guess it's time to chiong study again. But, now I really do not have this motivation. It seems that I'm getting to the bottom of the class now. It's not that I'm getting stupid or what. It's just that I've no motivation to study at all. No idea why though. But one thing that I'm interested in is studying Japanese, which is an exception. I'm having lab tomorrow, and home that I won't forget to print my notes out and do the pre-lab. Which I think i might<_<, Anyway there's an upcoming OL orientation. Some of my classmates were interested when one of the lecturer said " a chance to see girls". Guess this always works on most guys. For me, I'm not really very interested in these "oppotunties". People ask me what type of gf I would prefer. Lets see... I guess it would be someone who is mature but not that mature, reserved, and someone whom would place me first etc etc etc As my language is really lousy, I don't really know how to describe it. Well, I think this kind of people are rare now in my opinion.

Actually, I'm feeling quite sleepy now. No idea why actually, I think I slept for a full 8hours but I'm still sleepy. In fact, I rarely had times which I'm really fully awake. Guess it's due to my inability to allow my mind to have a "deep sleep". Come to think of it, what's the difference between a dream and reality? If you treat both of them as two different dimension, it means that its 2 world. Probably, dream is a world where when we leave this reality, it's the world where we would be living on.

Oh yes! I think I found the real reason why I can never listen with 100% attention during a lecture or when someone is teaching. Because my brain is slow. Most of the times, in conversations, I need to make the speaker to say twice as I would not catch the things at the beginning of the sentence. I don't know if it's my hearing fault or it's because of my brain. Either one would hinder me from listening to a lecture or when someone is teaching, and also, this may probably made people don't like me i guess. Anyway I don't really have anyone as in friends who is cared for me, nor I have anyone to show my concern to, so people dislike me or not, doesn't really matters to me actually.

Hmm right now, I'm waiting for one of my Secondary School friend to come online so I could play dota with him. I guess he is stucked with his vaccation homework, I don't really expect him to come online anytime soon. Guess since I'm free now, I might as well go find the lab manual and do it first. Oh wait... ARGHH My printer is out of INK. Can't print-.-". Sad... I shall spend my other time doing the thinking: "what should I do?" then.

See ya next time! Bye~