Hmm.. Just did finish my editing for my speech and also did the diagram i needed for my TD mini-project. Gosh, days are getting very boring... Tomorrow's my BFA test. Hope I'm able to do well in it without much effort! lol! I know it's impossible... But I'm really lazy to study now-.-". Ever since I got ditched, I lost my competitive stance, well probably in the past, I was struggling to be at her standard as she's studying in JC while me, even though I'm in poly, we promised to meet at university. Well, seems that stress is gone, I don't really have much motivation to really study very very very hard. I'm just like... when there's test I study, when there's tutorial I try to do it. Other than that, I'm slacking. I'm not like those people who have alot of passion for this course that they would go home and read through their notes everyday, in other words, I'm not consistent.

Anyway, my results are dropping now and I'm not bothered to pull these grades up either. I doesn't matter if everyone gets ahead of me which was what I thought. Anyway no one really take notice of me. It seems I'm just a invisible coat in my click, or what you call a loner in a click. I don't participate in those "rough-play" that my classmates did to each other as I feel it really hurt the other person a lot, nor I really tell them about my opinion before as I know none will listen. Well, it's fun even if I'm there to just overlook what they did everyday. Guess that's enough for me.

Yesterday, while buying my shoe for my formal presentation, I suddenly felt dizzy again. I wonder if I've some sort of high pressure, and it's signalling me symptoms of a stroke. Well, if it's really so, my days may be numbered I guess. I don't really have much thing to regret now as I don't have any aims in life now. Like now, even I don't really like my course, I continued to study as though it's compulsory. What if I'm gone now, who would remember me? Probably my families and relative. Well guess that's good enough. LOL omg I'm so pessimistic.

I was staring at my computer screen just now for awhile, without knowing what to do. Which was why I typed this entry. Seems that I'm really getting bored as stuff. Maybe I'm still interested in anime, but I'm just too lazy to do anime hunting as it's very tiring. I wanted to memorised my revised speech, but again, I'm just too lazy (but of course I'll memorise it before Wednesday). Lazy people like me are probably useless or a disgrace to the community I guess. I can't be a help to anyone.

Hmm... I think I'm going to have my dinner now. See ya all for now. JA!