Drift Drift Drift~~~ I'm getting out of the group.... I've changed. I feel now a days, I seemed to be more serious and didn't really joke around. Now i don't even have the motivation to join in, even if I'm left out, I didn't bother to do anything about it. Actually it bothers me, just that I know that i would not be able to do anything. Something i heard today upset me. I was really LEFT out. If that person didn't said it, I would not have know. Even these few days, I wasn't really sitting with them, which i usually was. Hey people, if you don't like me or anything, please tell me straight at my face, don't just quietly leave me out like this. At least I know the reason why I'm left out or such.
Exams are around the corner, and I'm still in my holiday mood. I had just done 3 chapters of PIPC2 notes so far, though i read and studied them, I'm still not confident that i got all the information as I was either msning or watching tv when i was studying. Hope my exam mood would turn on before the exam started. I really need someone to force me to study as, me in nature doesn't have the habit of studying. My class has several people who are studying really hard. It bothers me, since I'm really slacking. Whenever i reach home, the first thing i do is turn on my computer and play games/chat. If there's nothing to do, I'll just browse my computer files and tidy up my computer, or i research on something new about computer stuff. Man... I'm such a no-lifer. What to do? A person with a life having small circle of friends could not do much. It's not like i want it, it's probably I'm lousy at making friends, and probably my attutude sucks. Now, I don't really care about my dressing nor my hair which I did cared for a short period of time, no idea why... Probably it's beacause I didn't care anymore on how people look at me.
Today, during my PIPC2 lessons, the lectuerer said about why certain compunds are coloured to our eyes. I was thinking, in actual, does everything around us has colours? Or we are probably living in a world of black and white, just that our eyes show us a illusion of the world. The world may not be as nice as what we see. Sigh... Its probably the world that I'm living now..
Guess people who read untill this point despite my hard-to-read colour font, would be my friends who don't minds me or someone who like reading blogs or even my secret admirer? LOOL. Nah, its impossible for someone like to have one.
Ok i think its time to go. Probably play dota or my psp before I sleep. Gotta do one qn someone requested me to do tml otherwise i would get killed=X. NIGHT!
