"Weeee....." A brand new year 2008! Happy New Year to those who are reading this. Well... If people ask me what's my New Year's resolutions, the only thing I can think of is for myself to be happier this year. Thought people who knows me may think I'm happy everyday. But probably they have totally mistaken me. Yesterday's count down, I was in my room, enclosed. Counting down myself. Kinda sad huh? Well thats me... I felt very lonely. My family didn't really organise a party or so, so I only have my animes and my game to accompany me.
Tomorrow's the "real" reopening of the school. Guess it's time to chiong study again. But, now I really do not have this motivation. It seems that I'm getting to the bottom of the class now. It's not that I'm getting stupid or what. It's just that I've no motivation to study at all. No idea why though. But one thing that I'm interested in is studying Japanese, which is an exception. I'm having lab tomorrow, and home that I won't forget to print my notes out and do the pre-lab. Which I think i might<_<, Anyway there's an upcoming OL orientation. Some of my classmates were interested when one of the lecturer said " a chance to see girls". Guess this always works on most guys. For me, I'm not really very interested in these "oppotunties". People ask me what type of gf I would prefer. Lets see... I guess it would be someone who is mature but not that mature, reserved, and someone whom would place me first etc etc etc As my language is really lousy, I don't really know how to describe it. Well, I think this kind of people are rare now in my opinion.
Actually, I'm feeling quite sleepy now. No idea why actually, I think I slept for a full 8hours but I'm still sleepy. In fact, I rarely had times which I'm really fully awake. Guess it's due to my inability to allow my mind to have a "deep sleep". Come to think of it, what's the difference between a dream and reality? If you treat both of them as two different dimension, it means that its 2 world. Probably, dream is a world where when we leave this reality, it's the world where we would be living on.
Oh yes! I think I found the real reason why I can never listen with 100% attention during a lecture or when someone is teaching. Because my brain is slow. Most of the times, in conversations, I need to make the speaker to say twice as I would not catch the things at the beginning of the sentence. I don't know if it's my hearing fault or it's because of my brain. Either one would hinder me from listening to a lecture or when someone is teaching, and also, this may probably made people don't like me i guess. Anyway I don't really have anyone as in friends who is cared for me, nor I have anyone to show my concern to, so people dislike me or not, doesn't really matters to me actually.
Hmm right now, I'm waiting for one of my Secondary School friend to come online so I could play dota with him. I guess he is stucked with his vaccation homework, I don't really expect him to come online anytime soon. Guess since I'm free now, I might as well go find the lab manual and do it first. Oh wait... ARGHH My printer is out of INK. Can't print-.-". Sad... I shall spend my other time doing the thinking: "what should I do?" then.
See ya next time! Bye~
