What if one day, you have a charm that fulfills all your desires? Would you be happy? Well, for sure, everyone would be happy. In chinese there is a saying "Yao feng de feng, yao yu de yu". It literally means what ever you want will always happen. Well if it's possible for the world, won't everyone in the world be happy?

BUT! Have you thought that if you are happy at something, someone out there would be disappointed. For example, if you are top in class, and feeling happy, there is sure to be someone who is at the bottom of the class and he/she would be feeling unhappy. It's a balance between happiness and unhappiness of the world. If a charm that makes you happy, won't it be a curse that makes another one unhappy? [Happiness Equation : Happiness = Unhappiness]

What if.... in possession of that, one day if your feelings tell you that you hate that person, and that person really disappeared from the world, won't you be living in guilt? You may be happy for awhile, in exchange, the person's family and friends would be unhappy. Having a charm to fulfill desires is a dangerous tool which one should not even desire to have it.

Well, probably when I feel sad, someone out there is taking the place of happiness for me. It's probably a consolation for myself as I know I made someone happy=).

LOL another inspiration entry=X. Well, at times I would reflect on these kind of stuff, that is why I'm weird I guess.

Well today, I wanted to ask my mom something and her reply made me very frustrated. I've no idea why too. Probably she did not answer my question and started to saying something else. I don't like this part of me. She didn't mean any harm to me but me... I felt frustrated. Arghh... I would really want to change this part of me.

Just a few days ago, I talked to one of my friend's friend after getting ps-ed. I compared him and myself. He was really interested in chE, while for me, I just study because it's something I need to complete. I really could see the enthusiasm of him in lectures, while for me, I wished breaks would come soon. I felt stupid. Though I don't really like the course, I tried to study for it, and if I don't understand anything, I didn't really bother to understand them. I seems that I'm such a failure. I don't even have the right attitude to start with, and I want to score distinctions in my exams. LOL

Argh... Till now, I don't really have an idea of what I'm going to do in future. It seems that life is really boring. Why doesn't something special happens to me to make my life more colourful. It's really very monotonous. Everyday's rountine is like this: Wake up in the morning -> Go school to suffer mentally -> come back home -> watch anime. It repeats day after day, and if there's homework or test, I of course would study for it.

It seems that I forgot that I still have my CSAS project to do-.- argh... I guess I'll do my OC project first. Cya then!